The Lord is not slack concerning His promise, as some count slackness, but is longsuffering toward us, not willing that any should perish but that all should come to repentance.
My soul, wait silently for God alone, for my expectation is from Him. He only is my rock and my salvation; He is my defense; I shall not be moved. In God is my salvation and my glory; the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God. Trust in Him at all times, you people; pour out your heart before Him; God is a refuge for us.
Dear Hungry One,
I am here to feed you, My greedy, hungry one. You long for Me because I have placed a hunger for Me in you that will not be satisfied by any other than Myself. If you did not love Me, you would not want more. As I stretch your love for Me, you will want more of Me. Be satisfied with what you have by recalling My blessings to you.
You were created for Me, and you have natural longings to be noticed by your Maker. When you get disappointed and desire what others have received, you are a hurt bride, feeling ignored by her Lover. You long to be included and noticed by your Beloved. When you miss His glance or His touch, or even a word from Him, you experience abandonment and rejection of the One you seek to encounter in deepest union. You see others raptured in a loving embrace, and you sit on the sidelines and yearn for the same.
I do not torture or punish you. To do so would be cruel. Rather, I am drawing you to Me by your longings. I am not avoiding you; I am doing a work in you that is far deeper than what you see around you. I am drawing pain out of you-- pain of longing, pain of rejection, and pain of feeling invisible to those from whom you wanted love. This pain is written upon the cells of your body. The pain needs to be released. I am drawing you deeper and deeper into a place that needs My love to fill it. Your time will come. Your life's experiences are yours alone, and the path you walk to Me will be different from any other. You are not too complicated to reach.
Trust Me when you do not see or hear. Trust the One who knows what you need. I do not withhold My love from you. My love is always with you. You perceive experiences as "My love" and as "lack of My love." In the spiritual realm, it is different. You will not always know what is happening. Trust Me with your heart. I will not hurt you; I will heal you. This is not meant to cause you grief, but to do My will in you. I am maturing you by not giving you all the experiences for which you long. This is the greater gift, that of maturing and delaying gratification. You need to be in love with your Lover and not just the gifts He gives you.
Do you love Me for Me, or for My gifts and for how you feel regarding them? Do you want growth and maturity, or do you want to be spoon-fed frequently? You cannot have both if you are to go where I want to take you. Choose the latter, and you will be a blessing. Go beyond the experience to the depth of union with Me. Believe in Me more than you believe in My gifts. I give My gifts to you, but you do not recognize that they are being worked into you. Some gifts will not be experienced as gifts.